For the next couple of weeks things went about the same for Amanda and AJ. Amanda was resting her head on a desk in her art class when she felt someone's hands on her sides. She smiled, not lifting her head because she knew who it was. She lifted her head and smiled at AJ, wrapping her arms around his neck and hugging him as he lifted her up and out of her chair.
*Hey baby.* He said and kissed her lips softly. Everyone knew they were going out now, it was no secret. And especially since AJ was not known to date it had been known around the entire school quickly.
*Smile!* Amanda's friend Kayla said and they both smiled for Kayla's camera. That night AJ was supposed to go over to Amanda's house to watch tv with her. He came over to her house at around 8 and no one was there, like usual. They started the movie and snuggled together on the couch for a while.
*Where's your dad?* AJ asked her and she looked at him questioningly. *Well it's just that he's never here.* AJ said justifying his question.
*He just likes to go out...* Amanda said.
*Mandy why don't you just tell me what the big secret is?* AJ said sitting back and facing her.
*What do you mean?* She asked.
*Come on, I can tell just by looking at you that you didn't move here because you wanted to... I can tell that you're not happy...* AJ explained and she kept looking at him.
*AJ, it's nothing alright?* Amanda said after a minute, as if she was debating on whether or not to tell him.
*It's something, why can't you tell me?* AJ asked her. *I don't know anything about your family... I've never even met your dad, you won't tell me why your mom left. Don't you trust me?* He explained.
*I don't wanna talk about it okay? Can't you just drop it?* She asked standing up and facing the window.
*No, I can't drop it. You're gonna have to tell me sooner or later, why not now?* He asked getting frustrated and then she didn't talk for a while.
*She didn't leave okay?* Amanda said turning around with tears in her eyes. *She's dead. My mom died. Is that what you wanted to hear?* She asked him, looking at him with so much hurt.
*Amanda...* AJ said quietly, not knowing what to say.
*Don't touch me...* She said as he tried to brush her arm.
*I didn't mean to push you...* He told her.
*We moved because my house burnt down...* She said with her back to him and her head down. *That's how she died and that's how we moved... we lost everything.* She explained. *And my dad's never around, he's always drinking...*
*Why didn't you tell me?* He asked her as he wrapped his arms around her. She tried to get away but he wouldn't let her. *Shh just let it go...* He whispered to her and she soon stopped struggling and collapsed in his arms and cried hard.
*I just wanted everything to be normal here... I didn't want anyone to know about my past... I dont want to be pitied.* She explained looking into his eyes.
*Baby I love you... I want to be here for you.* AJ explained to her as he played with her hair. *I've never felt this way before... you know the rumors. They're all true except this time. I really want to be here for you.* He said kissing her lips over and over. They laid on her bed, AJ on his back and Amanda's face on his chest and she cried until she fell asleep.
The Next Morning
When Amanda woke up she looked at the clock, it was 11 and AJ wasn't there. She rubbed her eyes and laid in bed for a few minutes before she got up and walked downstairs. She was wondering why he didn't stay but she didn't let it bother her as she ate her breakfast.
AJ
~What am I doing? I love her...~ AJ said to himself as he drove to his house in his car from Amanda's. ~Man you can't be falling for anyone right now... not for a long time. She's not right for your life, she'll just mess it up.~ He told himself as he turned the music up.
In school on Monday Amanda was looking for AJ because he hadn't called her all weekend. She didn't see him until third period but she couldn't talk to him during the class because she didn't sit near him.
*AJ...* She called trying to catch up with him after the class in the hall.
*Dude, come on!* Someone yelled at AJ.
*I can't talk right now,* AJ said as he was dragged away laughing, as if he didn't care about Amanda. She wasn't sure what was going on but she didn't really care either... she loved him but she was too stressed out about everything, especially after she poured her heart out to him the other night. Maybe she scared him away, she thought. So for the next week Amanda didn't call AJ and AJ didn't call Amanda and they didn't talk in school at all. She had tried a couple more times to talk to him but he had ignored her just like the first time so she gave up. One day she was walking down the hall during a class so she was all alone when someone pulled her into a closet and closed the door, turning around and revealing themselves to be AJ.
*What are you doing?* She asked looking at him and he pushed her against the wall and kissed her hard. She kissed back for a minute, missing his lips, and then stopped. *Wait,*
*No don't wait,* He said brushing her lips again. He started to move his hands over her breasts through her shirt and then down to her legs. He pulled her panties off, because she was wearing a skirt, and discarded them by the wall. She undid his pants, not knowing what was controlling her but she couldn't stop herself. Once she pulled his dick out he slammed into her without warning.
*Oh!!* She screamed but he covered her mouth.
*Sh...* He whispered as he kissed her lips and then her neck and chest that was showing from her low-cut shirt. He lifted her up and slammed her against the door, making her moan and he moaned along with her. He buried his face in her neck as he slammed in and out of her and she tried to be quiet as he whispered into her ear.
*You're so beautiful... fuck me... oh baby you feel so good.* He whispered into her ear as he pounded in and out of her over and over.
*Oh god AJ... don't stop...* She moaned as she slid one of her hands under his shirt and rubbed his stomach and her other hand was supporting herself around AJ's neck. He continued to push in and out of her and she could feel herself about to climax and she knew he was about to also. *Faster, go harder so we can cum together.* She told him and hearing her say that made him slam into her so hard that that was all it took and they both came together, breathing heavy. AJ let go of her and she slid down the wall, fixing her hair as he zipped up his pants with his back to her. He bent over and grabbed her panties, handing them to her and she put them on and then turned to him, expecting to see him smiling at her or hearing him say something to her. Instead he was holding the doorknob with his back still facing her.
*I'll uh... see you around.* He told her without even looking at her and then he left and shut the door behind him.
Amanda was up in her room crying a couple days after that day after school. First it had been about AJ and then she started thinking about her mother and her old friends and how her father was never home.
*Hey what's wrong?* Her dad asked, walking into her room.
*Nothing, leave me alone.* She said stubbornly and he didn't move or say anything for a minute.
*Come on sweetie tell me.* He said sitting on the bed next to her.
*Nothing's wrong with me dad! What's wrong with you?* She asked sitting up and he looked at her like he didn't know what she was talking about. *Oh come on dad,* She said wiping her eyes. *How come you don't act like my father? Where are you every night? You don't even care about me and Marc do you? We could do drugs, throw parties, you couldn't give two shits!* Amanda said finally telling him what she'd been thinking.
*Hunny...* He started.
*You said we'd do it together... you said you wouldn't leave...* Amanda said more quietly as her tears started again.
*I didn't leave, I'm right here.* He told her, rubbing her back.
*No, you left when we lost mom. You're never here!* She yelled as she stood up. She ran downstairs to the door, put her shoes on, and ran outside to her car. She didn't know where she was going but she knew she didn't want to be at home. She drove to AJ's house but didn't stop, she wouldn't have known what to say to him. Then she drove down a few roads she'd never been down and stopped at the end of one, putting her car in park and resting her head on the back of her seat, sighing. She kicked her car and started to cry, not knowing what else to do. She was so lost... she didn't have her dad, or her brother, or her mother, and worst of all she didn't have AJ. She was confused... she didn't know what she had done to push him away but it wasn't fair. She needed him. Pretty soon she fell asleep in her car, losing track of time.
