After about a week I took the bandages off of my sides. They were still bruised but they were much better and didnt hurt nearly as much and the bruises on my face had completely gone away.
*So I think we should stay home and watch a movie tonight and get food to go.* AJ suggested to me as we were on our way home from the store. I had just gotten used to staying at his house and it was sort of like my own now that all my things were there and I had nowhere else to go.
*Okay, let's go to the movie store and rent one.* I replied and he drove to the store and came in with me while I searched for an interesting movie. *What about this?* I asked holding up a movie.
*Nah too mushy. What about this?* AJ asked holding Scary Movie and I took it from him and put it back on the shelf, laughing.
*Oh, I have an idea.* I said going to where the older movies were. I found the movie The Rocky Horror Picture Show and begged AJ to get it. *Come on! I love this movie...* I said pulling on his shirt and he laughed.
*It looks really freaky.* AJ said reading the back.
*I promise you'll like it.* I pleaded and he smiled. We rented the movie and then got some food at McDonalds and went home. By the time we got home it was already 8 so we ate, I got my pajamas on, and then we put the movie in. We snuggled on AJ's bed (which was now mine too) and watched the whole movie. As the credits rolled I felt AJ's hands on my sides and then he rolled me on my back and laid on top of me, kissing me. It scared me for a minute. His mouth pushed against mine hungrily and his hands started moving up my shirt, caressing my breasts through my bra. *AJ...* I said trying to get him to stop or at least slow down. He didn't answer and just took his shirt off and then mine. *AJ stop.* I said and he stopped and looked at me.
*Why?* He asked looking hurt. I didn't know what to say... I didn't want to tell him the truth so I just looked at him for a minute and then kissed him again and he continued to undress both of us.
*No wait, stop. Stop!* I said pushing him off of me. I grabbed my shirt and left the room quickly, walking across the hall into the guest room and shut the door, sitting against it.
*Meagan...* AJ said knocking on the door. He tried to open it but he couldn't because I was sitting in front of it.
*AJ I don't want to talk about it.* I said sniffing and he could tell I was crying. I got up and laid on the bed, crying into the pillow.
*Meagan, can I come in?* AJ asked and I didn't answer... how could he be like this? No guy had ever respected me like that... if I had walked out like that no guy would ever have asked if he could come in when the door wasn't even locked. AJ opened the door slightly and saw me on the bed crying. *Meagan,* He said softly and I opened my eyes and looked at him through my tears. *Baby, what's wrong?* AJ asked and I didn't know what to say. He came and sat next to me on the bed and I held his hand tightly.
*Why are you shaking? Oh my god, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to push you, it's just... well tell me what's wrong? If you told me I wouldn't push you.* AJ explained and I sat up a little and leaned against the headboard.
*It's not you don't apologize. I'm sorry.* I said sighing as I wiped my eyes. I couldnt look him in the eyes as I talked. He laid on the bed next to me, still holding my hand and playing with my fingers. *It's just... I'm scared.* I said and AJ smiled.
*Of what?* He asked.
*Of you...* I said and he looked at me confusedly. *Not like that... I know you wont hurt me. It's just Ryan did and he made me scared that all sex was like that... he was my first and only, until you, and I'm just scared.* I explained and AJ sat in front of me, taking both of my hands.
*Baby I love you. I'll wait as long as you want. But you have to know, that I will never hurt you emotionally, physically, or sexually intentionally all I want is you and I'll wait until the end of the world for you.* AJ said and as he said that the tears ran down my cheeks freely. I got embarrassed so I wrapped my arms around his neck and cried on his shoulder.
*I love you.* I whispered and kissed his lips softly. We fell asleep in the guest bed that night and pretty much stayed in the bed for the day after that, just cuddling and making out a little bit.
After about a month I had gotten used to living with AJ and we just sort of silently agreed that I would stay there permanently. Everything seemed to be going good and he wasn't even pressuring me to sleep with him, which surprised me. I had totally healed by then and things seemed to be pretty normal. AJ and me decided we wanted to go out to a club and dance that night so I got dressed up and we left the house at like 9.
*You look beautiful.* AJ whispered against my lips as we danced to the fast music on the dance floor, holding each other closely.
*I'll be right back,* I said smiling as a new song started and I left the dance floor, walking towards the bathroom. I waited for the girl in front of me to get out of the bathroom, it was a one-person stall, and I walked in after her. I shut the door and was starting to lock it when it was roughly pushed open and knocked me back on to the floor. *What the hell?* I asked as I stood up and faced someone's back... a guy's back. I was shocked and didn't know what to do as I listened to him lock the door and then turn around and I knew who it was before they even turned around. *What are you doing here Ryan?* I asked frightened.
*The same thing you are... dancing.* He told me as he walked closer to me. I backed up until I was against the wall and he kept approaching me.
*What do you want?* I asked him as I looked at the floor.
*You... I thought I killed you.* He said to me and I looked into his eyes.
*That would have made you happy huh?* I asked and he smiled and put his hand on my face.
*No...* He said softly and I turned my head from his touch. *What, you don't miss me? Is it because of AJ?* He asked looking angrier and I was starting to get scared.
*Yeah, as a matter of it is... he helped me get better after you beat the shit out of me and I love him.* I explained confidently and Ryan laughed.
*You love him? Have you fucked him yet? Oh yeah I forgot. You guys were fucking a long time before I beat you that time weren't you?* He asked and I looked at him coldly.
*Ryan, we both know that I wasn't the one doing the fucking while we were together.* I said to him.
*What do you mean? We're still together, we never technically broke up.* He explained and now I laughed.
*So you think you can just beat me up and tell me you want me to die and expect me to forgive you?* I asked him smiling at him and I knew it was the wrong thing to do. He never liked to feel like he wasn't in control and as I smiled he grabbed my arms roughly.
*HEY!!* Someone yelled, knocking on the door and I jumped and Ryan just grabbed my arms tighter, telling me not to say anything.
*I'll be watching you baby.* He whispered as he held my face and kissed my lips hard. Then he let go of me and walked out of the bathroom, leaving me against the wall.
*AJ...* I said walking up to him at the bar.
*Yeah?* He asked turning around smiling. *Hey, are you okay? You look kinda pale...* He said, his smile fading as he rubbed my arm, but I pulled away because it hurt from where Ryan grabbed me.
*I feel kinda sick. Do you think we could go?* I asked him looking into his eyes and he nodded yes, looking concerned. He got our jackets and then walked out to the car with me.
*Are you sure you're okay?* He asked me and I just smiled weakly at him. I couldn't tell him about Ryan, he'd just flip plus as long as I was always with AJ Ryan couldn't hurt me right? We got back to our house and I laid down on the couch with AJ, snuggling against him and holding him tighter then I usually do. I could tell he was still concerned but I knew he'd get over it.