*Are you ready to go baby doll?* AJ asked Meg, walking into her room and she turned around from her suitcase and smiled at him.

*Yeah, I'm almost done.* She explained turning back to the bed.

*Alright, I'll see you downstairs.*

When Meg was finished she ran down the stairs and jumped on AJ's back. *I'm so excited!!* She screamed and he laughed as he walked with her on his back out to the car. They loaded everything in the trunk and then they all got into two limos. *Oh, hello.* Meg said seeing Dana sitting across from her. *It's good to see you again.* She didn't want to start off on the wrong foot by making enemies.

*I'm sorry, I don't remember you...* Dana said taking AJ's hand and smiling a fake smile at Meg.

*Oh, well we met at a club about two weeks ago.* Meg said and Dana smiled.

*Oh, you're Meagan right? My AJ told me you were coming.* She said kissing his cheek and Meg cringed but forced a smile at her.

~Stop it Meagan, before you want to jump her.~ She told herself and smiled, thinking about the fact that she was going on tour. The ride to the airport was pretty silent and when Dana and AJ kissed Meg felt like throwing up. She made gagging faces when they weren't paying attention to her and Nick and her would laugh silently. It seemed like everyone knew that the Backstreet Boys would be there because when they got to the airport there were thousands of girls outside and inside, screaming all of their names. Some of them had even painted their names on their faces and things. The bodyguards walked with them inside and to the gates and they signed some autographs. When the commotion had calmed down and all of them were by themselves Meg heard Dana crying.

*Those little bitches... they fuckin ripped my shirt.* Dana yelled and pushed AJ off of her when he tried to quiet her down.

*Hey...* Meg said getting her attention. *I have one you can borrow, it's not the end of the world.* Meg offered politely, trying to make the situation lighter. Dana looked at her and then stormed off.

*Why the fuck do you stay with her AJ?* Brian asked him and AJ sighed and looked at Meg. *How are you gonna let her talk about our fans like that?*

*I don't know Brian.* AJ said sounding stressed and a little depressed. *I'm sorry.*

*Hey...* Meg said walking over and sitting next to AJ. They had their own part of the airport blocked off to outsiders and fans, so there were no people around. *That was quite a show over a shirt.*

*Yeah... she can be such a bitch.* AJ complained.

*Don't worry about it okay?* Meg suggested, putting her hand on his back as he rested his chin on his palm. *If she can't see past her own little problems and realize she's not making you happy and she's being selfish then she's not worth it.* Meg said and then laughed. *I sound like my mother.*

*Thanks.* AJ said smiling and hugging Meg and then Dana came back over to them, with a new shirt on, and started yelling at AJ, pushing Meg out of the way. They finally boarded the plane and Meg was actually happy that she wasn't sitting near AJ because she couldn't take much more of Dana, she was about to punch her. The plane ride was pretty relaxing and when the plane landed Meg thought it was too soon. They went through the whole mob of fans again and back into two other limos and then were taken to the hotel. The Boys first concert was in New York City and they had a few shows there so they would be staying for about a week.

*Hey, how's it goin?* AJ said as Meg opened the door to her hotel room.

*Fine... come in...* Meg said curiously and he walked past her.

*Alright, I can't take this anymore. She is seriously starting piss me off.* AJ said walking back and forth and Meg shut the door and walked over to lean against the wall. She watched him for a few seconds, thinking that he looked stressed.

*Okay, chill.* She said standing in front of him and stopping him. All of a sudden he put his hands on the sides of her face and kissed her deeply. Meg kissed back for a minute and then pulled away, realizing what she was doing. *What are you doing?* She asked with AJ's hands still on her face.

*I've wanted to do that since I saw you at that party...* AJ said kissing her again.

*But what about Dana?* Meg asked.

*Fuck Dana.* He replied and Meg backed away as he tried to kiss her again.

*Okay this is happening way too fast.* Meg said turning her back to him.

*No, no it's not...* He said turning her back around to face him. It was late, about midnight, and Meg turned on another light so it wasn't so dark. AJ just turned it off again, kissing her. He picked her up around the waist and brought her into her room, kicking the door closed behind him. She kissed back and they started undressing each other. *Mmm oh god, you feel so good.* AJ moaned as he laid them both down on the bed.

*We can't do this.* Meg whispered barely audible but she didn't stop kissing all over his neck and shoulders. She knew that she shouldn't be doing this... she knew he'd just run back to Dana after they were finished... she knew he was just using her body but he felt so good to her... he felt so right.

*You're right we can't.* AJ whispered and took her panties off. He started licking and sucking her nipples and began to finger her at the same time, making sure she was wet enough for him. He kissed her hard on the mouth and entwined his fingers with hers as he thrust into her hard.

*Oh!* Meg yelled, unexpectedly. He kept thrusting faster and harder, making Meg's head hit the headboard a couple times. This wasn't love this was fucking. Meg knew it, AJ knew it. Finally they came together, quickly, and he collapsed on top of her, resting his head on her chest as they both tried to catch their breath. Eventually Meg fell asleep thinking all sorts of things like she had just made a huge mistake and that he cheated on Dana again... After she fell asleep, and he knew she was sleeping, AJ quietly gathered his clothes and walked out of her room, shutting the door behind him.

*What did I do?* He asked himself out loud and he walked out of her room and down the hall, back to his.

*Baby, where were you?* Dana asked him as he climbed into bed next to her.

*Talking to one of the guys, sorry I took so long.* AJ replied pulling her close to him as they fell asleep together.

The Next Morning

Meg had expected to wake up finding AJ next to her sleeping soundly, but she also expected him to be gone so when she realized he wasn't there she didn't know what to think or how to react. Part of her was telling her to cry and the other part was telling her to forget it. She finally gave in and while she was taking a shower she let it all out, slumping down in the corner, crying until her head hurt.

~I'm not gonna let him get to me.~ She started thinking.

~He already has.~ She argued with herself.

~I'm just gonna go downstairs and get some breakfast.~

~But what if he's there?~

Finally she went downstairs and saw all of them eating together at a table.

*Meg, come here!* Sara called her over and Meg walked over quietly. *Sit down with us, we were just wondering when you'd be down.* She said but Meg turned her down.

*I'm just gonna get somethin to eat and go out for a little bit.* Meg replied and Sara looked at her, knowing there was something wrong.

*Are you okay?* AJ asked her knowing what was wrong. Meg shot him a look wondering how he could have the nerve to even speak to her and then walked away. *I'm gonna go see what's wrong, I'll be back.* AJ said kissing Dana lightly and following Meg over to the counter. *Hey.* He said touching her arm.

*Let me go.* Meg mumbled, not looking at him.

*Meg, listen to me--.*

*AJ, don't start anything with me. Especially not here, unless you want me to start screaming about what happened last night while your precious girlfriend sits right over there. Trust me, I'll make sure she hears.* Meg said turning to look him in the eye so he knew she meant it. *I don't want to talk to you or even look at you, please leave me alone.* She stressed the last four words so he'd get it into his head. He stood there and stared at her for a while trying to decide if she really meant what she was saying and when she didn't break eye contact he knew she did and turned around, walking back to the table and feeling his heart bleeding. The rest of the week that was spent in New York was the same. Meg didn't talk to AJ at all and she avoided being around him or even in the same room as him. She wanted to take the other night back so badly for some reason she thought he had feelings for her but she knew he just thought of her as a groupie... some girl he could use whenever he needed sex.

Their last concert in New York was that night and she had stayed backstage not wanting to be around a lot of people. She walked into the nearest dressing room and fell asleep on one of the black leather couches, with the concert on a little 13 inch TV that was in the room. She was woken by someone walking through the door. They couldn't see her though because she was in the other room and when she saw them coming to the door she realized it was AJ and closed her eyes, pretending she was still asleep. She didn't want to face him.

~What's she doing here?~ AJ asked himself in his head as he walked into the back room of his dressing room and stopping to look at her. *She's so beautiful.* He said out loud and walked over to her, kneeling down to her level. He tucked a piece of hair behind her ear and kissed her lips softly, barely touching them. *Look, I know this is a bad time to do this since you can't hear me and everything but you won't let me explain.* AJ whispered sitting on the floor next to her and folding his hands in his lap, afraid of where they would travel to if he didn't control them. Meg could smell his scent mixed with his sweat from performing and that alone made her want to cry. *The other night was a mistake...* He continued in his hushed voice. *Not the sleeping-with-you part but the leaving-you-in-the-middle-of-the-night part. I really wish that I could be with you but... well believe it or not I'm scared.* He whispered and she almost let herself smile but reminded herself that he was watching her face. *I think... I'm falling in love with you...* He said slowly, not sure if he wanted to admit it to himself. *And I know you're afraid to love me back. You're afraid I'm going to hurt you, and you should be since I already have twice, but I'm starting to get scared that you'll hurt me... the main reason I'm with Dana is because there is no risk. I know that I won't get hurt because I know that I don't love her and I never will.* He whispered and Meg felt tears well up in the corners of her eyes. *I've never felt this way before... all I know is that I don't want to lose you and I want to be with you but the other night was a mistake because I just slept with you to get my mind off of Dana. That was so wrong of me and I wish you knew how badly I want to take it back...* He said kneeling like he was about to get up. *I guess I'm just gonna need some time to get away from Dana and make you trust me again.* He ended with a sigh, as if he was happy to say what was on his mind, even if she couldn't hear him, and he walked into the bathroom.