I sat at my desk and tapped my pencil against the table, trying to think but not being able to concentrate.

*Hey hun,* Ugh I hated when he called me that. I thought as Rich walked into my office and leaned over my desk, giving me a kiss. *Are you almost ready to go?* He asked and I looked at him.

*Go where?* I asked as I stood up and shut my lap top, that was enough thinking for the day.

*We're going to dinner remember?* He asked, looking annoyed. *Damn, you never remember anything.* He added with a shrug and I walked over to him and put my arms around his waist.

*I'm sorry,* I said making him look at me and he leaned down and kissed me softly, and then we walked out of my office. It had been about a year since my father had passed away and about two years since I had been with Rich. Once my father had passed, I found out he had left the entire company in my hands, probably thinking he wouldn't pass away for quite some time. I mean, I'm only 23. So I had been president of his hotel now for a year and not many people liked me. None of the men and women that were part of the board thought I was old enough or responsible enough to take over such a big corporation and I was determined to prove them wrong. As I got into the passenger side of Rich's car I looked up at the hotel and then at the snow that was lightly falling.

Me and Rich went to dinner at a really nice, expensive restaurant.

*Meg...* Rich said and I looked at his face. He really was cute... he had nice features and he was really sweet, sometimes too sweet. *We've been dating for almost two years and I think it's time to take it to the next level.* He said and I just stared at him blankly. *What do you think?*

*I don't understand... do you mean you want to get married?* I asked him and he smiled and nodded. *Really??* I asked with a grin and he nodded again.

*So what do you think?* He asked and I leaned over and kissed his lips sweetly.

*I think... okay.* I said and he laughed a little.

*Really? You really want to?* He asked with his forehead against mine and I smiled and nodded. He took the ring out and placed it on my hand. *I love you.* He whispered.

*I love you too.* I replied with another kiss. Eventually we finished eating, and then we went home and made love.

The next morning I went to work bright and early like always now and stopped to talk to Cassie, whom I was still friends with.

*Yeah those hotties are back.* She said and I laughed and then took a deep breath and almost felt like I was going to hyperventilate. *Are you okay?* She asked and I just looked at her and then booked it to my office, shutting the door behind me and running to my desk, flipping through all sorts of papers until I got to the one I was looking for. I let out my breath finally as my head started to feel dizzy and I flopped down in my chair.

*Holy shit... holy shit...* I whispered over and over as I read the note I had written to myself, over and over.

~Don't forget! The Backstreet Boys are coming Dec. 1^st!~ The note read and I threw it in the trash, leaning forward and placing my head in my hands. I had been dreading this day for so long... I didn't want to see AJ and as manager and owner of the hotel it was my duty to welcome them. I had thought about AJ a lot when he first left, or when I left him I should say, but lately I had been trying to put him out of my head. It was no use dwelling on the past. I walked out of my office, straightened my clothes and walked towards the elevator, taking a deep breath. I figured I could catch them in the hallway with the woman who was showing them to their rooms. As I stepped off the elevator and started walking towards the corner I heard some voices and became extremely nervous.

*Do you know if a woman named Meagan still works here?* AJ asked her and my heart started to melt he was asking about me which means he thought about me.

*Yes,* I said as AJ looked up. *I'm right here.* I added and forced a smile on to my face as I stood up straight and walked over to them.

*Sorry, we couldn't find you so they just told me to show them.* The young girl said to me quietly and I smiled at her.

*It's okay,* I said and she handed me the information and the keys to the rooms. *Thanks.* I said as she walked away and then I looked at AJ and then to the rest of the men. I couldn't look into AJ's eyes, as soon as I did I felt like jumping into his arms and telling him how much I had missed him and thought of him for the past two years. *It's good to see you again.* I said to all of them and they all said their hellos, they probably didn't remember me. I quickly glanced down at the sheet of paper and clenched my teeth, why does he always have to be the last one? I asked myself and showed them all to their rooms.

*Well if you need anything else, please let me know.* I said as AJ opened his door and threw his bag into the room.

*Wait,* He said and I turned around and looked at him. *Why are you acting like we've never met before?* He asked me and I sighed.

*It's weird...* I admitted and he laughed.

*Ya think?* He asked and I smiled. He was still so lovable. *You look good.* He added and I felt my face start to blush. *You're all dressed up.* He said.

*Well, I kind of have to dress like this now...* I said and he gave me a confused look. *My dad passed away about a year ago. So here I am. Taking his place.* I replied and AJ's face fell a little.

*I'm sorry to hear that.* He said sincerely and I smiled and thanked him. *Listen, please have dinner with me...* He said walking towards me a little but I stepped back and he just sighed.

*Okay,* I said and he looked at me surprised, he never thought I'd say yes. *Where?* I asked him.

*Uh... wanna just meet here around 7?* He asked me and I smiled and nodded.

*I'll see you later.* I said smiling at him over my shoulder as I walked away.

*Baby, me and my friend are going out to dinner tonight.* I said to Rich over the phone from our apartment. He was still at work.

*Okay good, cause I'm gonna be late anyway.* He said. *I love you.* He said sweetly and I smiled.

*I love you too,* And then we hung up. I got dressed in black pants, a white button-up shirt, and a black tie feeling creative.

*Hey,* I said quietly as AJ walked up to me and smiled.

*You look good.*

*You too.* I replied. He was wearing khakis and a dark blue dress shirt and he looked so beautiful I wanted to jump on him.

While we were eating it was in a sort of uncomfortable silence and I finally sighed. *I thought you'd hate me...* I admitted and AJ looked up at my face. *I mean I would hate me if I were you... I was so scared for so long knowing that I was going to see you again.* I said bravely letting my thoughts out and AJ smiled.

*I did hate you for a long time.* AJ replied and I smiled a little. *Well, I couldn't say I hated you. But you really hurt me... I dont know though. We should just forget it right? I mean, there's no point in holding grudges.* He explained and I sighed with a smile.

*I guess so...* I thought to myself. But I couldn't forget it... forget how I cried in front of him... the first guy I had ever cried in front of. I couldn't forget how good it felt to be in his arms... how different it was with him then it was with Rich.

*Anyway, what are your plans while you're here?* I asked taking another bite of my food.

*We have two concerts, which you should go to, and I dunno... I'm probably just gonna chill. It would be nice to not have to do anything.* He explained.

*Yeah, that's cool. I'd love to go to one of the concerts.* I replied as I tapped my foot on the floor.

*You're different...* He said and I give him a confused look.

*What do you mean?* I asked.

*You... you're so... refined now...* AJ said and I smiled.

*Is that bad?*

*Well in a way it is... I mean, remember you snuck me out of the hotel? And how much fun that was... I can't see you doing it now.*He explained and I sighed.

*Yeah well, I've had to take on a lot of responsibilities I never thought I'd have at 23 ya know?* I explained and he nodded.

*Definitely... I totally thought becoming famous would be so easy but it was hard. And still is and I had to grow up a lot faster.* He explained as he paid the check and we got up and walked towards the exit. *What do you wanna do now?* He asked and I looked at him.

*Wanna walk?* I said as we stood in front of his limo. Although it was December, we both had jackets, and it was a fairly mild night.

*Yeah,* He said with a grin and I smiled and we walked down the sidewalk.

*Honestly AJ...* I said after a while. It had been a long time since either of us said anything but it wasn't an awkward silence and now we were in the park, walking around in a big circle. *I--ahh nevermind.* I said feeling my face start to blush and I put my gloved hand up to my cheek.

*No, what?* He asked with a smile. *Come on you know you wanna tell me...* He tried to coax me and I laughed.

*Don't take this the wrong way or make fun of me... but I really missed you.* I said heaving a sigh and AJ's smile faded and he became more serious.

*God I can't stand this!* He said stopping his pace and clenching his fists and I looked at him weird. *I just wanna fuckin take you in my arms and kiss you.* He said quickly closing the space between us and locking our lips together.

*No wait...* I said pushing him away and I turned my back to him.

*I knew that was a bad idea... I'm just so frustrated right now... I have been ever since the day you walked out my door.* He explained to my back. *And now being with you...* He said and I turned around to see him staring at me. *Being with you has brought back all those feelings and memories of our last day together... those things you said to me.* He added and I stared back at him.

*AJ come on... don't do this to yourself...* I pleaded as I looked into his eyes. *Can't we just be friends?* I said softly because now my body was almost right up against his.

*I can be your friend Meagan... but I can also be your love. Just don't forget that.* He said staring down at me and I smiled a little.

*I'm sorry,* I whispered and he gave me a reassuring smile telling me he knew. I wrapped my hands around his waist and he hugged me tight and held me for about 5 minutes until we started walking back towards the hotel.

*I could have walked you home ya know.* AJ offered for the 50^th time as we stood in the lobby of the hotel.